In order to make room for new things you have to throw out the old, your mind is like a house. And as soon as you get your house organize and rid of old things or ideas that no longer work, then the house feels different and brighter. So think of your mind as a house you don't want it cluttered, and you don't want a lot of old things collecting dust because you can't put anything new in it. So your doing the samething with your mind when you hold on to old things or even negative people who aren't growing or changing they're kind of like weeds. Suffocating the beautiful flowers trying to growing. Samething with friends,some are like weeds. They suffocate the flower and the flower can't grow. Then the weeds take over and the garden is ugly. This is what happens when we are surrounded by negative people. Or even people who are constantly saying negative things and are pessimistic. It changes your mood , sometimes it's draining and can make you tired. When that happens just like the weed they took your good energy and feel good about themselves.
Think about this the next time things in your life aren't going well. Sometimes it's us and are emotional self and what we are thinking all day long and sometimes it's the people we associate ourselves with
Friday, March 27, 2015
Monday, February 9, 2015
Perspective( FISHY THOUGHTS)
Every Mercury Retrograde, I seem to write something or be inspired to write through my journey. I've been reading comments on my facebook and on mine twitter about arguments with others, and issues with other people are coming up. The problem we can say it's planetary because Mercury is in retrograde in the sign of Aquarius. Bring about this need for one's personal freedom or bringing out the need of the EGO. Ego talks a lot about this time because Mercury rx shows what we want and some of us it's time to be alone, or peace and quiet. It's hard to obtain at home especially if married. I feel that when we talk about our situations, and take the other person's situation and compare the two. It gives us an opportunity to relate to each other. For example, my husband and I, my husband use to be a delivery man . He use to whine everyday about how he would clean and clean , sometimes not even get lunch. Now he's an account manger. I'm still a business owner, a mom, and a housewife. I clean my house but sometimes with all I have to do , I want him to help me . Instead of sitting on the couch watching me clean. So I don't yell at him because my feelings are coming from a place of ego. My feelings are being reactive so I must keep going; I know you have to develop a certain discipline to keep ego at bay but as I change spiritually so does my situation and the people in my life. You'll notice every five years we are not in the same place we were in five years ago. I told him this and I could tell he didn't understand so I put things in perspective. I said " remember how you felt as delivery man cleaning while everyone stands around." Instead of getting into to a reactive screaming match and fighting because thats what my ego lives for. I change the script, he understood better, and he said I 'm a lazy person. He said, he will be more aware of my needs and situation and he's going to work on it. We didn't yell, we came to a compromise and an understanding of where we are coming from. This is an example of perspective, because when you make your situation relatable to what another person be through you have an easier time coming to a solution and understanding each other. You also have to talk with yourself and ask is this coming from a place of Ego, because not everything is about the other person sometimes it's just about you going through some emotional changes or needing to change somethings about yourself.
Sunday, November 9, 2014
DEEP FISH THINKING OF THE WEEK : DISPLACE EMOTIONS
This energy here displace emotions took me a very long time to figure out or acknowledge because I did not understand what was going on with the true me or neither cared. As I delve now into my trueself , trying to remove the layers of onions around me. I realize I am a very angry , vehement person for the wrong reasons.
I 'am so quick to anger, so quick to judge, so quick to hurt someone else because the way I use to think; it would make me feel better. It would bring me relief , it would make me feel good, but then regret comes in. Then I would feel bad , sad and very depress. As I go threw my emotional journey, I realize I'm still mourning the lost of my father.
My father passed away when I was 13, I was told not to cry for him; I did anyways. I love my father he understands me and always protected or stood up for me when my mother was trying to make me into something I was not. My father wasn't a great man, he was rich, good looking , and a bad drug addict. When he died my life changed, his siblings did not invite us to his funeral. I did not mourn as a family unit. I think being able to talk about your grief and mourn is process and also opening and talking about it. I cried everyday till this day I cry for him. What I realize that a lot of my negative energy comes from missing him. When I get mad it's over the top, crazy,okay. A lot of that vehement energy comes from his passing. For the longest time I couldn't figure it out till today. When I acknowledge my hatefulness over something so stupid and I was jealous and angry over this situation. I paused and the situation was stupid, and I knew because I pause I'm still hurting from my past, I still hurting from the lost of my father, I'm still in mourning. Then automatically a weight was lifted and my head clear. This week when you are in this place of negativity ask yourself: where is the energy coming from is coming from a place of lost?? So the healing can come in and relief can start
I 'am so quick to anger, so quick to judge, so quick to hurt someone else because the way I use to think; it would make me feel better. It would bring me relief , it would make me feel good, but then regret comes in. Then I would feel bad , sad and very depress. As I go threw my emotional journey, I realize I'm still mourning the lost of my father.
My father passed away when I was 13, I was told not to cry for him; I did anyways. I love my father he understands me and always protected or stood up for me when my mother was trying to make me into something I was not. My father wasn't a great man, he was rich, good looking , and a bad drug addict. When he died my life changed, his siblings did not invite us to his funeral. I did not mourn as a family unit. I think being able to talk about your grief and mourn is process and also opening and talking about it. I cried everyday till this day I cry for him. What I realize that a lot of my negative energy comes from missing him. When I get mad it's over the top, crazy,okay. A lot of that vehement energy comes from his passing. For the longest time I couldn't figure it out till today. When I acknowledge my hatefulness over something so stupid and I was jealous and angry over this situation. I paused and the situation was stupid, and I knew because I pause I'm still hurting from my past, I still hurting from the lost of my father, I'm still in mourning. Then automatically a weight was lifted and my head clear. This week when you are in this place of negativity ask yourself: where is the energy coming from is coming from a place of lost?? So the healing can come in and relief can start
Sunday, September 21, 2014
Deep Fish Thinking
Hello happy traveler on this journey called life, sometimes called what the hell and other names. This week, I don't mourn but my husband family mourns a 17 year old boy. He was more like a vegetable, he couldn't see , he couldn't hear, he couldn't speak, he was wheel chair bound, and he was fed through a bag attach to his stomach. What a burden to take care of , why does God do such thing. This boy had such a powerful message to give. For 17 years his father and sister took care of him. His sister got a lot of flack from the family because she got paid by the state to take care of him. He began to lose weight and she was accused of neglect, some of the family wont even speak to her , so sad.
I believe God created all of us to serve a purpose in life, not to live and be part of our agenda. God already knows your wants and agenda, he created you. I believe this young man's purpose was to teach his family foremost patience. When we are dealing with it, to still be happy in our current situation no matter what, and to be at peace. In vedic astrology, they would have said my cousin was going through her Saturn return and had a karmic lesson with her little brother. A saturn return in vedic astrology last for 10-13 years by the way. She had to learn patience, and to put other people's needs first, and to love him no matter. She probably didn't learn that growing up at home with her family or she probably didn't learn it in a past life. I feel she learned her lesson and her family learned her lesson because he was taken so soon.When she talk to me about him, she would smile. Sometimes in life we have to have experience with people whether we want to or not , to close a past life chapter not to create new ones.Some of us learn it quickly and others of us it takes a life time. What ever situation you are going through, it's temporary , it may feel like for ever , it's not. Thats your ego telling you it's further and you'll never get out of this situation. This week During Rosh Hashanah try to put your agenda behind you, pray for others, be kind to each other, and very important one tolerate each other opinions and actions.
I believe God created all of us to serve a purpose in life, not to live and be part of our agenda. God already knows your wants and agenda, he created you. I believe this young man's purpose was to teach his family foremost patience. When we are dealing with it, to still be happy in our current situation no matter what, and to be at peace. In vedic astrology, they would have said my cousin was going through her Saturn return and had a karmic lesson with her little brother. A saturn return in vedic astrology last for 10-13 years by the way. She had to learn patience, and to put other people's needs first, and to love him no matter. She probably didn't learn that growing up at home with her family or she probably didn't learn it in a past life. I feel she learned her lesson and her family learned her lesson because he was taken so soon.When she talk to me about him, she would smile. Sometimes in life we have to have experience with people whether we want to or not , to close a past life chapter not to create new ones.Some of us learn it quickly and others of us it takes a life time. What ever situation you are going through, it's temporary , it may feel like for ever , it's not. Thats your ego telling you it's further and you'll never get out of this situation. This week During Rosh Hashanah try to put your agenda behind you, pray for others, be kind to each other, and very important one tolerate each other opinions and actions.
Sunday, September 14, 2014
Deep Fish Thinking
Hello,Hello,Hello happy travelers. As I begin to swim in thought. Talking about the power of words today."Why is it that words have the power to evoke feelings in us? For some of us ,like myself to take things personal and seriously . For others, they'll be like what ever and on with their life, I seriously wish I can do that. For me words make me react. Words do hurt me so how do I remedy it. I don't look at the words, I don't read the comments. My reality is actually quite and peaceful. Not one person has anything negative to say to me. My life is pretty boring but I like it . In internet land everyone has a thought and opinion on something,hell I do too. I'm not vicious like some of the comments made by others, but I like to comment too. Even in our reality people saying nasty things to us they hurt. Why do we take them personally , why do we give power to their words.
This is an exercise to work on this week and through out our lives, because this is part of the human experience is to learn to tolerate what others say. To learn to be indifferent but at the same time know when its constructive criticism and they are not just beating us up. We have to realize we are in control of our emotional self . We have to realize when the words are meant to hurt and when they are correcting us . We have to learn that this is your reality and you can pick and choose what you want in your reality. Me I choose to listen to the corrections that I need to make from family and friends,some will be honest others not so much. I choose to surround myself with people that make me happy. The more peace of mind we have the closer are angels come to us to give and receive messages from God. The closer we are the more we attract into our life the things and situations we want in our life. You can choose to listen to the negative words, or you can choose to be positive and look for things that make you happy as to not get you off track. From this day forward when some one is going to say something you don't want hear. Tell them don't give me that negative energy,keep it to yourself. Then even when your friends are crying to you and draining you. That is a sign that they are taking away your good energy. Tell them stop, call me when you feel better and we will talk. We have to choose are situations that we put ourselves through. We want nothing but the best so sometimes we have to remove ourselves from negative people that put us down. Even our own parents when were old enough we have to move out and live our lives. Sometimes we even have to confront the situation in order to break the negative energy.By saying stop, this is my story not yours ,I want positive things in my life. Just by saying "stop it", we acknowledge the energy and it is broken.
This is an exercise to work on this week and through out our lives, because this is part of the human experience is to learn to tolerate what others say. To learn to be indifferent but at the same time know when its constructive criticism and they are not just beating us up. We have to realize we are in control of our emotional self . We have to realize when the words are meant to hurt and when they are correcting us . We have to learn that this is your reality and you can pick and choose what you want in your reality. Me I choose to listen to the corrections that I need to make from family and friends,some will be honest others not so much. I choose to surround myself with people that make me happy. The more peace of mind we have the closer are angels come to us to give and receive messages from God. The closer we are the more we attract into our life the things and situations we want in our life. You can choose to listen to the negative words, or you can choose to be positive and look for things that make you happy as to not get you off track. From this day forward when some one is going to say something you don't want hear. Tell them don't give me that negative energy,keep it to yourself. Then even when your friends are crying to you and draining you. That is a sign that they are taking away your good energy. Tell them stop, call me when you feel better and we will talk. We have to choose are situations that we put ourselves through. We want nothing but the best so sometimes we have to remove ourselves from negative people that put us down. Even our own parents when were old enough we have to move out and live our lives. Sometimes we even have to confront the situation in order to break the negative energy.By saying stop, this is my story not yours ,I want positive things in my life. Just by saying "stop it", we acknowledge the energy and it is broken.
Thursday, September 11, 2014
Deep Fish Thinking
Hello Happy Travelers, as I swim through life and life is good,God is good. I had a dream the other night that I would like to share. As I go through these blockages and start to rid the layer of onion to get to the true self. I feel I have to share my journey to help others understand their journey.
In the great words of Martin Luther King, "I had a dream". Not that kind of life changing, save people dream, not that dream. I would like to share something from my Kaballah classes before I start and from the Zohar. I 'am not allowed to share my dreams because if others dismiss it , it becomes a form of the evil eye then the dream wont come true. If you talk about your dreams to people make sure you talk about them to people who care or don't talk about them at all. Kaballah deals with the metaphysical and spiritual wisdom.
Anywho my dream, I 've been having a lot of dreams with my mother in them. We are constantly fighting in my dream. Two nights ago, she was telling my client and other people how horrible I was. People were telling me this again(p.s.she's done this in real life). I didn't say nothing to the people but I went to her. I told her "you have all these powerful connections." You have all these movers and shakers in the entertainment industry but you were so about your agenda." God gave you many opportunities to help me." Then I woke up, I wanted to be an actress all my life, thats it. I did a visualization board when I was 28 and asked on the vision board," what is my destiny." Viola here I'am . What does this dream mean, the meaning of this dream is to not wonder about what if and to not to feel guilty about what you did because I needed to do these things to get to this place.
We can not be about the past; we have to about the present and where we are now and not think of the what if and the regrets. We have to let go of that past. The past was suppose to happen we were suppose to grow from it and learn from it and move on. We cannot linger on the what if and the regrets because they were meant to happen to get us to the present. Everything we do in life was either a lesson or serve a purpose to help us move to the present and into our future.
Relationships are the same way, sometimes are love relationships or infatuations are meant to move us out of the place we are in and then leave. That person served their purpose in our life. For some they literally move us into another state,literally. We have a purpose this is where we need to be right now. Friendships the same way we learn from each others mistakes and help each other grow. Sometimes we have to leave each other because their agenda or our agenda doesn't match, or where they are spiritually and where we are spiritually doesn't match. Like attracts Like , it's a scientific fact
In the great words of Martin Luther King, "I had a dream". Not that kind of life changing, save people dream, not that dream. I would like to share something from my Kaballah classes before I start and from the Zohar. I 'am not allowed to share my dreams because if others dismiss it , it becomes a form of the evil eye then the dream wont come true. If you talk about your dreams to people make sure you talk about them to people who care or don't talk about them at all. Kaballah deals with the metaphysical and spiritual wisdom.
Anywho my dream, I 've been having a lot of dreams with my mother in them. We are constantly fighting in my dream. Two nights ago, she was telling my client and other people how horrible I was. People were telling me this again(p.s.she's done this in real life). I didn't say nothing to the people but I went to her. I told her "you have all these powerful connections." You have all these movers and shakers in the entertainment industry but you were so about your agenda." God gave you many opportunities to help me." Then I woke up, I wanted to be an actress all my life, thats it. I did a visualization board when I was 28 and asked on the vision board," what is my destiny." Viola here I'am . What does this dream mean, the meaning of this dream is to not wonder about what if and to not to feel guilty about what you did because I needed to do these things to get to this place.
We can not be about the past; we have to about the present and where we are now and not think of the what if and the regrets. We have to let go of that past. The past was suppose to happen we were suppose to grow from it and learn from it and move on. We cannot linger on the what if and the regrets because they were meant to happen to get us to the present. Everything we do in life was either a lesson or serve a purpose to help us move to the present and into our future.
Relationships are the same way, sometimes are love relationships or infatuations are meant to move us out of the place we are in and then leave. That person served their purpose in our life. For some they literally move us into another state,literally. We have a purpose this is where we need to be right now. Friendships the same way we learn from each others mistakes and help each other grow. Sometimes we have to leave each other because their agenda or our agenda doesn't match, or where they are spiritually and where we are spiritually doesn't match. Like attracts Like , it's a scientific fact
Sunday, September 7, 2014
Deep fish thoughts, how deep this fish can swim
I think my purpose of my life is to go through my human journey and have some of these experiences to share with others. This month, I'm going to SanDiego for Rosh-Hannah. I will admit for a bit my faith was shaken because I spent so much money on this trip so much so I'm broke. My faith is being tested because I was in lack and thinking in lack this must be fake Kaballah. Why am'I in lack, right now I don't have a phone, and I can't pay my bills. My month of August was horrible. I kept reading my cards to see when it will get better. Finally I stopped because I should have known better. Because in are darkest moments there is God, in are darkest hours there still hope and faith.
I'm still broke but I should have seen and acknowledge the blessing my family received before we went broke. My landlord gave us more than enough vegetables to help survive the month of August. I took it as another sign as God is going to bless me with abundance, because we had so many vegetables from his farm we shared with my husband family. This was my test for me, did it change yes. I didn't run and blame my husband for the lack of money in our life. I stop blaming Kaballah because when I was really going through it. Kaballah pulled me out of my emotional self. So this experience that I'm going through is my journey to Rosh Hannah, a sign that I will receive greater blessings. I have to go through this lack to appreciate the abundance coming after Rosh Hannah. So my mental state is peace, I've been working on myself emotionally with my husband, so I feel lighter and my faith in God is stronger.
When we are going through lack , we have to take this moment or month to realize it's not forever. Prayer really works when we are in the emotional tar and we have to acknowledge the sparks of miracles in our life. God is listening and we have to be at a state of peace. You can't allow yourself to have negative conversations when your going through it because you'll continue to go through it. Then when your not going through it , you'll feel like you are going through it and not notice or acknowledge the blessing around you. Are emotional dictates how long you'll be in lack. When you stop having the negative conversation with yourself . Your life begins to change.
Take this time when your going through the lack to start praying everyday to God. When you prayer you can't threaten , don't make promises you can't keep,and don't force the prayer. Like your having a conversation with yourself . Also when you are having conversation with yourself start everyday saying positive things about yourself, because your hypnotizing yourself into being that way, so it comes to pass. Take this time to clean your house throw at old things, old food because you want new things to come into your life. This I experience through hurrican Katrina. My mom made me give all my clothes away and she said God will give you more clothes because he sees you don't have any. Sure enough I had a ton of new clothes,it's something to think about. When we donate to others we bring light to ourselves and sparks of miracles
I'm still broke but I should have seen and acknowledge the blessing my family received before we went broke. My landlord gave us more than enough vegetables to help survive the month of August. I took it as another sign as God is going to bless me with abundance, because we had so many vegetables from his farm we shared with my husband family. This was my test for me, did it change yes. I didn't run and blame my husband for the lack of money in our life. I stop blaming Kaballah because when I was really going through it. Kaballah pulled me out of my emotional self. So this experience that I'm going through is my journey to Rosh Hannah, a sign that I will receive greater blessings. I have to go through this lack to appreciate the abundance coming after Rosh Hannah. So my mental state is peace, I've been working on myself emotionally with my husband, so I feel lighter and my faith in God is stronger.
When we are going through lack , we have to take this moment or month to realize it's not forever. Prayer really works when we are in the emotional tar and we have to acknowledge the sparks of miracles in our life. God is listening and we have to be at a state of peace. You can't allow yourself to have negative conversations when your going through it because you'll continue to go through it. Then when your not going through it , you'll feel like you are going through it and not notice or acknowledge the blessing around you. Are emotional dictates how long you'll be in lack. When you stop having the negative conversation with yourself . Your life begins to change.
Take this time when your going through the lack to start praying everyday to God. When you prayer you can't threaten , don't make promises you can't keep,and don't force the prayer. Like your having a conversation with yourself . Also when you are having conversation with yourself start everyday saying positive things about yourself, because your hypnotizing yourself into being that way, so it comes to pass. Take this time to clean your house throw at old things, old food because you want new things to come into your life. This I experience through hurrican Katrina. My mom made me give all my clothes away and she said God will give you more clothes because he sees you don't have any. Sure enough I had a ton of new clothes,it's something to think about. When we donate to others we bring light to ourselves and sparks of miracles
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