Wednesday, May 28, 2014

Mercury retrograde by Marie Moore July 18, 2012

Mercury Retrgorade, I feel highlights the things you  really want,  and the things you  need to work.  This mercury retrograde listen to yourself, notice what is the desire, notice the difficulties, because really these are reflections of  ourselves. We want  a relationship , we are getting depress because  we dont have what we want, will to get love  you have to learn to love  yourself and be okay with or with out a relationship, when  you do that the universe notices that  and brings you a relationship, because either way your happy with yourself with or with one.  You may experience lack, so what are  you lacking  in yourself then try to  fullfill that need , or maybe like an onion  you have to work through the layers of onions to find why  you work or think that way and change. Mercury retrograde to me is all about working on yourself and loving yourself, and except the real challenges as  your healing process
This is an article I wrote about mercury retrograde last year, I thought, I should bring it back as a reminder. I added my own personal experience that I find my self in now. We learn are lessons through out our life  three times:   past , present and future. 
 I feel like right now, I'm going through a lesson to practice what I preach.  Someone in my life is calling me a liar. This person did this twice now, I know to let this person go because when people do you wrong twice or turn on you so quickly , no matter how much Help you gave them , it's time to let them go. If I allow this person in my life the third time I have no idea or I do have an idea the crap that is in stored for me. Unfortunately, no matter who it is in your life you have to learn to let go, watch the signs around you. If it's not coming from a place of love, or sharing or inspiring you to grow, but instead trying to hurt you  and cause drama in your life even though you done nothing but help and that person wants to play victim, let them go. This person will always be the damsel in distress in her movie.Let the victim go because they are not worth having in your life and don't want to grow and change. This has happen to me twice now in my life with another person. I know my actions that I did which was offering this person free help, and allowing this person to take up my time, when I could have been doing readings for others. This was my choice and I fed into the bread of shame, now this person wants to think I have contacted their friends and talked about their problem. What this done for me in the spiritual sense because I thought this person would change is take away a blessing from me aka a credit in heaven and also send the evil eye on to me.    I have no time in my life with yearly reports,hand written and natal chart interpretations hand freaking written to sit and call people. I don't even call my friends nor my husband everyone calls me.   By the way I do this for living , this my lively hood, it feeds my child , pays my bills, and helps me give to charity.  I'm so appreciative of my talents.I wouldn't jeopardize this for the world, I was meant to do this I was inadvertently trained to do this.   Alot of people in my life dismiss what I do , people think I don't have a job, but the IRS knows this is my career ,and God knows. I will not devalue myself to fit into your square box. Nor will I go out of my way to scam someone because everything in life is cause and effect. God gave me a gift to help others , to service others, God gave me a purpose and I'am forever grateful. I will never do anything in this life time or in the next to jeopardize my gifts. I'm stepping off my soap box, so the moral here it's okay to let go of those who do not benefit or treat you right , no matter who they are   

Thursday, May 22, 2014

Daily Journal

I love Kabbalah first of all because I'm so much in the present that I watch the signs around me about my self and others. I watch the lessons given by others an apply those lessons into my daily life. In 2009 , I had a falling out with my mother, it was my Saturn return in Virgo. My Saturn return was really dealing with alot with destiny and me not moving into that destiny because I gave my mother all of my time. Meaning even though she was establish with her business and I wanted to see her do well and I was happy for her. She really didn't want the same for me. At 29 I thought being an extra and looking pretty was my destiny and just be happy in general was my calling, I thought awesome. She does the same thing that I do but she's been doing it a lot longer than me, she has threaten me I think almost every year about my business. Listening to her and doing what she wants me to do , doesn't up lift me , doesn't make me a better, doesnt change me except keeps me in the bedroom of her house. Constant demands of being her assistant, I could have kept it going, if I didn't choose to take chances, and I think spirit would have been so loud for me , I really would have made her very jealous. You have no idea what honor it is when spirit while your wake comes talking in your ear.
       Do I reach out to her, or watch her website or facebook, yes for a while I did but then I stopped because she wasn't changing and nothing new was happening to her. All she does is pick on the fishes because I was born on that sign,sorry fishes, you are in the, you suck pool with me :) cheers pass the mojito.  I don't acknowledge her anymore because it doesn't change that situation because that person over there doesn't want change so why try to change that situation in my life. The way she sees the falling out with me  is different from the way I see, but I will not be a victim in that situation, but she can choose to be  a victim in the circumstance.  She can say I stole her idea , about starting a psychic business but you know what so can all the other psychic and astrologers. After my falling out with my family and yes I'am the black sheep of my family, the only person that acknowledges my existence is my half sister. Just because that person is dubbed a mom or dad doesn't give them the right to control your life, your job or who you love. You have to live for you. You have to do what's right for your soul, and for your peace of mind.  Why am'I talking about this part of my life, because I want people to know don't allow other people to control what you are doing and where you are going, let your parents raise you but when its time for you to live, go and parents children are not someone in your life that you emotionally control, because your mom and your dad. Your children don't owe you anything in this life. They are here to teach you something about your self and how to change that part of you. When you have a child you are asking for change, you are asking for that spirit to change that ego side of you.
I'm a parent and I acknowledge the soul in my child, I spend a good majority of my time playing with him, and also doing the responsibilities that I need to do to take care of him.     It's not easy at all because the majority of the time , I tired because I 'am battling between ego and my values which is to be present for him. It's a dam work out, I learned patience, I also learned to love unconditional, and to submit to the moment and enjoy the moment, because time is not on our side

Monday, May 19, 2014

Daily Journal

Last night, I saw a cermaic statue of chinesse dragon pot, and the picture is the artist in the process of creating and this was one of my majors in college. I wanted to be a ceramic artist, I had an innate ability, the first time I threw, I made a vase. I was in love with it, but I had at the age of 26 a major crush on this guy. This guy was also a ceramic major, he wanted to be a professor of ceramic or the professor was trying to convince into teaching ceramic something weird. One day, I decided to have the courage and tell him how I felt.   He did not feel the same at all , in fact the next day in class , he decided to bully me in class. He bullied the hell out of me, and I was really good , I had a unique style of throwing. He was really tearing my throwing style apart and tearing my work apart. I didn't go back, I didn't want to go back to school , I didn't want anything to do with college. In fact I was just about done with the major, like take pictures, make a cd and show your work done. I didn't want to confront, I didn't want to face him in fear he would verbally attack me  so I hid. I threw myself into my modelling and extra work and avoid,avoid,avoid.    
         Then around 2010, I started this business with the horoscopes just a blog and I even had a website for this too. Same thing happen to me again, my own mother verbally attacked me and bullied me, so I stop the website. I was working at KFC and Taco Bell, I  started to think I'm 30 years old I have nothing and I knew these people were never going to let me be anything.  I knew this can't be my life. During this time, I started my Kabbalah class and talking to my teacher, because I knew this can't be it.  My teacher told me you can't allow what people say scare you or dictate what you do with your life. Everything is about time, we have a certain amount of time then we die, thats it.  So I thought about it, I always liked the Youtube horoscopes, I thought I could do that, and of course my mother started but then I realized I'm 30 something years old. I can't live in fear of what others think of me, because it keeps me back, I can't runaway from what I want to do or have to do in this life. Trust this, she does have something crazy to say or something to say, thats great speak use your words, but know this I'm not watching or listening to what your doing or saying. I'm going to look straight ahead, I'm going to write and do my horoscopes to help other change. You can yell, send mass emails out about me , do what you have to do I'm keeping it moving, and if you want to stay busy looking at what I'm doing all you are doing is putting a spiritual spot light on me, and helping me grow, so Thank you. Never again will I allow myself to give into what other people think about me. I will continue to work and inspire others.  
          This was a lesson in my life, because if I continue allowing what people say affect this would be my third lesson. Our corrections in life, come in the same experience but come to us three times, Past, Present and Future , some thing to think about , if you keep seeing the same patterns

Sunday, May 18, 2014

Daily Journal

Every Sunday, I have Sunday dinner with my husband's Great grandmother, and every Sunday the church next to her over fills their parking lot to the point. We can't stay in the evening to talk with her and keep her company. I can't tell you how many times she went over that church and told them can you please move your cars across the street. Across the street in the middle of a field is a parking lot.  I can't tell you how scary it gets when the road to her house is a 50mph and your blind side is a bunch of cars. The scary part you can't see in the evening time any of the cars coming. How can you say or practice a religion based on human dignity, when you do not practice it yourself?
I can rant and complain about this because I have my one year old in the car and this is scary.  This is an example of people who talk them selves up , I'm a spiritualist , I'm a christian, proud roosters but that to me means nothing. Your actions towards another human being speaks louder than your words than your real beliefs. Your words mean nothing to me,your actions tell me you don't practice what you preach because you have to crowd this small parking lot and block you neighbor and blind your other neighbor. Don't say what you are, show it be kind to your neighbors, be considerate of other people around you, say hello to the stranger on the street that you don't know. Don't judge others because  they invoke some kind of feeling in you. This is such a big pet peeve of mine. I'm just saying the next time you  are in a parking lot and you are taking up two spaces think about your neighbor. I know it silly something so simple, but in the law of universe everything we do is about Cause and Effect

Saturday, May 17, 2014

Daily Journal

              I've decided to take time out every night or every other night and write about my day , thoughts, experiences or other people's experiences in order to help, or inspire others to change for the better. I've been wanting to do something new and I think I'm going to start writing about my experiences, not about my readings with my clients but my own experiences. I have  done almost everything except drugs, puff, puff pass twice in my life and it doesn't agree with my body, I'm allergic to life.
             Any who tonight , I think I will make this one a long one, but I want to write about why I don't give free readings. One it's about my self worth and just like anybody else with special talents or trade in general, it needs to be acknowledge that I'm giving my energy and time to help you change and in turn I need some thing back from you. Plus when I give a person a reading the client normally feels better after the reading  while I feel tired and lethargic afterwards. I have given my client or the person I'm helping my good energy and I receive nothing in return, but Marie you done a good deed. My reply no I have not because there are different types of help that we are not aware of. There's helping someone just to help not because spiritually you know your going to get some credits from God  which is really hard so you have to act upon naturally like a reflex. Not thinking oh I did a good deed credits in heaven; good deed doesn't work that way.   There's enabling someone, helping even though you know they wont change and bread of shame helping someone because you think you are doing a good deed and continuing to help them even though they don't want it which becomes a form of the evil eye.  That is why I charge people for what I do because if I do free readings then I'm devaluing what I do. I'm feeding myself the bread of shame because the person I'am helping wont change.  I know a handful of people that would argue  with me, this is not a forum for debate and I really don't like to argue which is another topic for another time. Anywho, the second reason why I charge for readings is from what experience dictates. Experience has dictated to me when I help someone for free, to help them to change for the better that person ignores my advice and also my predictions.  That person feels better about themselves because I 'm  giving my energy, but I don't feel better. In fact when someone doesn't change and I gave them free advice and readings, it actually doesn't give me any credit in heaven and turns into something bad for me. When my clients listen and have personal transformation of the self I receive blessings from heaven. When I receive blessings from heaven , it's like protection from the evil eye , from people wanting to do spiritual harm to me. As a mystic and a reader have to be careful when it comes to helping others so I choose to help others in different ways, instead of giving them a reading.  Everything we do, we have to show appreciation for. I have to have some kind of appreciation for my talents or else God will be like she doesn't like what she has then take it away. Sometimes that happens to us one day we are top of the world but because we don't acknowledge the creator and his angel, then  they give us drama ,lack and crisis. I hope this explains, I know some will say not really, but this is a rambling of my thoughts.  Sort of like a journal, because I do like journaling and this would be interesting to see where it goes